In a surprising twist, Jennifer Lopez, known for her relentless work ethic and vibrant performances, has made the difficult decision to cancel her much-anticipated comeback tour. The tour, titled This Is Me… Live, was set to be a celebration of her greatest hits, hitting major cities like New York, Los Angeles, and Miami, beginning this June. Fans had been eagerly awaiting Lopez’s return to the stage, but instead, she’s taking a step back—for herself.

A source close to the singer-actress revealed to PEOPLE that while Lopez is “devastated” to disappoint her fans, she is also “relieved” to be putting her own well-being first. “Life is a lot right now,” the source explained, highlighting Lopez’s need to dedicate time to herself and her family. Lopez has two children, and amid an array of personal challenges, including her recent divorce filing, she’s chosen to focus on what matters most.

The 55-year-old singer addressed fans directly, sharing her heartbreak over the decision. “I am completely heartsick and devastated about letting you down. Please know that I wouldn’t do this if I didn’t feel that it was absolutely necessary,” she expressed. For Lopez, who is celebrated for her dedication to her craft, letting down her fans was a significant weight. However, she reassured them, promising, “I will make it up to you, and we will all be together again. I love you all so much.”

The tour, her first since 2019’s It’s My Party tour, would have marked an exciting chapter in her career. Yet, Lopez’s team reportedly encouraged her to prioritize her health and family in this moment. “Everyone is supportive of her focusing on family right now,” the source noted.

Adding to the complexity of her life, Lopez recently filed for divorce from Ben Affleck on what would have been their second wedding anniversary. Known as one of Hollywood’s high-profile couples, Lopez and Affleck reunited in 2021 and quickly rekindled their romance, culminating in a Georgia wedding in August 2022. However, despite their shared efforts, the couple faced challenges that ultimately led to Lopez’s self-represented filing for divorce. A source close to Lopez shared that the actress “tried really hard to make things work and is heartbroken.”

Lopez’s decision to cancel her tour underscores a powerful message about self-care and balance, even for those in the limelight. For her fans, it’s a bittersweet turn, but one that many empathize with.